Things to spend money on when I next have money after Xmas

1. Second round of vaccinations for kittens
2. Having kittens castrated (if I can bear it)
3. New airmax trainers
4. Lip fillers
5. Tattoo of kittens

Pros cons

Pros:

1.living with creative people again
2.One is a dad so there will be a kid to play with sometimes
3.Kid will love kittens
4.Big garden
5.beautiful beautiful room
6.Amazing kitchen
7.Good transport links to my crew and to both jobs (south Tottenham and Holloway for crew, Oxford st and Haringey for jobs)
8.Close to park

9.ITS AVAILABLE AND I ONLY HAVE 5 DAYS LEFT
10.if I don't find somewhere this week I'll lose my Lush job

Cons:

1.it's a bit expensive
2.The idea of seeing him in the street makes me feel sick
3.The idea of going to the supermarket and he's there makes me feel sick
4.the idea of walking into a pub and he's there makes me feel sick
5.the idea of going for a run and running past him makes me feel sick
6.The idea of getting on a bus and he's there makes me feel sick
7.When the fundraiser was on green lanes I had to make my auntie drive me there and drop me outside the door because the idea of walking along that road made me feel so sick

10 pros and 7 Cons.

I just want you to know that I fucking hate you and I know what you did to me.

You emotionally blackmailed me into an abortion which ruined my physical and mental health and then laughed at me by booking a holiday with Sally whilst I was still leaking milk, THEN spent this whole entire year headfucking me into believing that I wasn't "as good" as her.

I'm not scared of you anymore, despite the fact that you've physically hurt me before, youre just an evil fucked up narcissistic cunt.